Found Relief

Stress has almost left my side.
After making the hard decision of dropping a commitment,
even though yes it did suck,
I feel so much more relieved, and less worry-ful.

I hated it.
Every second of it.
Being stuck and trapped
under the shadow of such insignificant messes.
It only gets my eyes wet, and my breath shortened of satisfaction.
it's a little scary for my personal taste.

But it was a lesson well learned.
I can't say yes to everything.
Sometimes, simply "no" solves all problems.
And problems unforeseen
Lesson well learned indeed.

God, prayers were always a way out.
So here's mine.
Teach me how to discern
what I should and should not commit to.
Sometimes, the answer to so many questions
is found within the mess of decisions
that we get ourselves into.

So God, here we go again
with the ever present discernment
that I never really had.