i'm not where i belong?

lately i've been really tackling the idea of leadership, and my leadership skills.

i've been questioning of whether i have what it takes to be a leader. and over the years of being a leader of so many things, i would've thought by now i would understood at least enough of what it takes to be leader.

i feel like there are so many times where people compliment my being a leader, and it makes me so sure that i don't need to be afraid to do what i'm already doing now, and that i shouldn't have to doubt my ability to be a leader.

but at the same time i feel like there are the times that people tell me that there's so much to improve on, so much i could do better, and it makes me question so many things about myself. am i actually doing this, am i actually doing that? am i throwing my title around? am i going the extra mile that others aren't going to go for? am i being a humble servant rather than a rash leader? i'm so sure that my heart and head are both in the right places, but if that was the case, then why is it seeming that i can't lead a group properly to do anything? and only now i've been questioning of whether my leading a group will be detrimental to the people i lead...

i'm so sure that i'm doing what i know God has called me to do, and that i'm hearing all the things that i've and trying to apply it all to myself. but yet it seems like i'm never near that. it scares me because i'm going to be a captain for TC, and i want to be everything i can for that group because it's a 2 day thing, 2 days to do everything i can for the group and then whatever happens after will be the result of my leadership and the people i lead.... i don't even know what i'm talking about anymore.

God, am i where i belong? is my heart where it needs to be? will i only result as a detriment to the people i lead? i don't know, and i'm beginning to fear my not knowing and my beginning of doubting myself.