Why Again? Why?

I thought this dying matter
close to those around me
was a game that ended a while ago.
Why again, God, why again?

So let's update on how many times this has happened to me so far

First, my friends father passes away
Second, our church's family friend passes away, leaving a desperate family behind
Third, my other friend's grandfather is in the hospital in critical condition

Now, my other friend's uncle has passed away.

All in the span of what, 2 weeks?

2 God forbidden weeks?

Why?

You have to come to a point
where you begin to question how so much
death
pain
sadness
tear dropping
there is in this.

So why?

I've learned my lesson on how precious life the first time was,
and I'm doing everything I can to live my life the best I can
for
my friends
family
myself
and You, God, You.

I guess, I let it out with a sigh of desperation.

Who knows where these people will go.

I leave it to you.
I mourn for them.
I mourn with them.
God just... please hear my cry, and theirs.
It's becoming too desperate now.