This Happens in the Gaps

I haven't blogged in a while...
I guess it seems like I blog with my poetry.
But sometimes, I guess, I have to make some time
for simple, un-thought out words to come into place.

So, this past week has been almost absolutely terrible
honestly speaking.
I sorta got the feeling that no one appreciated the work
I had put into the things I do for them.
And it was saddening, terribly saddening.

But today, my good friend rachel shared something.
It was her birthday last week, and she didn't receive anything as a gift from her good friend.
And she was thinking of how she did so much for his birthday, and she got nothing back,
and then she began to relate it to how God works.

God loves the world so much, and He sacrificed so much for it.
Yet, the world barely ever gives that love back to Him, barely ever appreciates Him anymore.

It's so sad to hear that, because I realize how true.
Almost like it's been at the back of my mind for so long,
and only now it's been realized.

I often wonder what would happen if I just randomly disappeared off the face of the planet.
How would my friends react, my family?

I don't know, because I just don't.

The only thing I've ever heard about that is that things would be drastically different,
and that people would be devastated.
I wonder how true, if at all, that would be.

I would normally hope for it to BE true, but it hasn't happened.

Regardless, God has never abandoned us every time we ignore Him, He somehow just takes it all in, and move on. It's not that he feels numb to it, but he just dreads every moment.

He must be sad all the time then... man. I'm so glad I'm not a God sometimes.

I just hope and pray that next week would follow itself through, in a better light.