A Test, An Exam

Haven't written in a while.
Well, here I am now.

Exams begin tomorrow for me.
And it's really a little, just a little, worrying.

I'm more worried about history and english
but for music and math, i think i'm fine.

But oh well
what can i do?
just gotta do what i can i guess.

it's a little weird now
because it seems that
a lot of better decisions are being made
and to some others, they are actually
thinking, which is amazing.

i often wonder
where i am in all this.

i mean i can hopefully say that
i'm not like most of the others
i treasure things like those.
it's not just a skin deep, shallow
thing.

it's unbelievably so much more.

but still, it's still in development
and i will wait for something
for God to tell me what to do
for myself to know fully what i want
no more of this i-think language
i should know.

So here's to hope
and to patience
to me being the one
that will hopefully be your crying wall
i'm still alive and here for you.