Wasted Days, Not So With My Mind

Okay, so today was interesting, good and bad.

I was hoping today
something would pop up
and then i'd be able to actually
not be rotting bored at home.

But i guess it was one of those days
that i could live with
simply because i got to
think about things a bit.

Anything about the week plans
what songs to be played this week at felly
friendships/relationships
World War II (after watching band of brothers)
my hair
my drumming
and other random things.

And i guess at the moment
what i'm really thinking about
is whether i'm ready
for certain things
that many others
think they are ready for.

In all actuality
they really aren't, are they?

And now in my actuality
am i?

I can say i am
and in all honesty
i think i'm close to home.

And it's feelings that make me think
that it's coming to a point
where i can't contain it
it just has to be applied
now.

Eh, well regardless
thank God for friends
without them
i think i'd be a rotting apple
just waiting to be turned
into bitter coffee beans
just waiting to be turned
into coffee
contributing to bad breath
and loads of crashing energy.

It's all about waiting now
praying
hoping
working at it
and i guess
being the friend
that Jesus was for
the ones that everyone else
thought they didn't deserve.

But really, who does deserve good friends?

It's not that we deserve them
it's that we need them.

So if they need it
i'm going to try
to give it to them.
him
her
everyone i can crash into.

P.S. writing every sentence
as if they were full stanzas
or paragraphs
is actually quite interesting
for me to write.